maybe...in the future

Just a little message I sent to the sister today:




I hope to see this at your house someday.

Look at all the wee little rainbows! Ohmygosh! So precious!

Spiritual Gifts

And to keep the ball rolling from my hiatus of posting,
here's a comment:

I never thought I would see that day that I would like a song by Train.
Weird name for a musical group, I know. Like, what are they? Conductors. Ugh. my Dad's corniness should not be one of my spiritual gifts. But oh well, it is what it is. Bam. That just happened!

ANYways, here are the lyrics (to the song I don't really even understand)!


Hey, hey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains . . {love that line!}
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't the Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can't cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight
Hey, hey

Tonight

Numero Ochenta

Wow- this number definitely came quickly after my fiftieth!
Woop! Go me!

Okay, enough about me.
(Well not really :)

The reason I haven't really been posting lately (well for quite awhile now. almost TWO weeks- geez it's been awhile!) is because, simply put, my life has become A LOT busier than when I was posting like crazy in January and in the wee small hours of February. (Name that song anyone?) After the semester started, I became really busy with school and everything it entails (work! finally! I was so bored without it!, homework, reading, going to class, etc.).

Needless to say, I have been busy with other stuff too and now I just don't have as much time to procrastinate for hours on end on the internet. Which sadly includes blogging. But I must point out, my time blogging is really only limited to this particular blog. Which is frustratingly so.
This semester, I have to blog or keep up with blogs of my classmates each week. Which has taken its toll on my excitement to blog on here as well.

I am still working through some things with God (isn't everyone- all the time? :), thinking about, praying about, and dealing with some things with Him. They are mostly all good, or rather, positive things, but I am working through them nonetheless. And one of them is my winter blues (which usually come in January and February). And another is the realization of the way I have been spending my time lately. I would argue that the time I spend blogging here is usually productive and positive for me (because I usually turn towards positive reflection & such things), but
I have realized lately how much time I use my computer and more specifically the internet to procrastinate and waste my time with. I realize this and I'm working on it, but that is just another reason I haven't been writing.

I guess another big reason is that I simply haven't felt like it. I have never been a person to do something every day and commit to spending the same amount of time doing said thing every. single. day. (in a row) So I am okay with this. However, I have missed writing. I feel that God has truly blessed me with this area and time as a niche for reflection and jotting down random blurbs of feeling, emotion, and for writing about the things that excite/depress/anger/thrill/and intrigue me.

Along with using my computer and the internet to waste my time, I have become increasingly aware of how much time my sister and I devote to staring at our computer screens. At times, we are even sitting next to each other! I know that this time of using the internet is not always wasteful, but I have noticed lately how badly I just want to close my computer and talk. Most of the blogs I gravitate towards include stories. I want to read about a person's life. Learn. And know them. And most of the time, it is fun to do that with strangers, or with people I am barely connected to. To learn about the unknown, hear someone's trials, rejoice with their delights, and learn from their mistakes. This is why I treasure these types of blogs. In a way, I started out this blog to do just that. To write my own thoughts, feelings, experiences and stories down. To share my history with other people, to hold myself accountable, and to share what God is doing in my life. However, although He has done interesting things through this blog, I have definitely been noticing lately how poorly I have been managing my time lately. And a lot of that is a result of the things I have already mentioned.

So if you're reading this (and I'm really only talking to Rach bc I'm pretty -100%- sure that you're the only person who reads this), please know that I am doing what I intended. I have been writing about things in my life, holding myself accountable on some important things, and sharing what God has been doing in my life. However, when I realized how often I was seeking a story on someone's blog, and that slowly started to include my sister, I realize my mistake and what I need to work on. I mean, come on! Last year I liked to read her sporadic posts because I didn't usually hear about what she posted. But now I live with her! I can get info from her and her a story from her life any time I want to!

All this is to say, I'm sorry. and thank you. (What movie/tv show is that from? Seriously- it's bugging me!)
No really, I guess I'm sorry I haven't been blogging in a way, but thank you blog for helping me learn about myself and ways in which I need to change.
The end.

GOAL!

Putting it out there.

Goal: learn how to play these songs.


The Kingdom- Bethany Dillon
A Voice Calling Out- Bethany Dillon
No Not One- Brandon Heath
Revelation Song- Kari Jobe
All I Need- Bethany Dillon
No Sweeter Name- Kari Jobe
Beautiful- Bethany Dillon
Hallelujah- Bethany Dillon
For My Love- Bethany Dillon
Hallelujah- 10th Avenue North
Before the Throne- Shane & Shane
Save Me- JJ Heller
Only Have One- JJ Heller
All I Need- JJ Heller
Love Never Fails- Brandon Heath
Listen Up- Brandon Heath

Woke up

I woke up with this song in my head. And it's a good one at that!

"A Voice Calling Out"

I hear a voice calling out
I hear a voice in this wilderness
Where darkness has reigned for so long
Ground is being taken

The trumpet sounds
And Your glory touches the ground
And we all stand in awe
Who is this?
This glory far beyond us
I hear a voice

I hear a drum beating
heaven's drawing near
The sky will open
Your people are being healed
I hear a voice

[chorus:]
Heaven's battle cry
Rise
See the sun light what was hidden
Heaven's heart beat
See is moving
What was a whisper is now
A voice calling out

I see a generation rising up
No longer accepting lies
Running to the battlefield
And losing their lives

I see a generation rising up
No longer accepting lies
As a band of worshipers run to the battlefield
They're finding their lives
I hear a voice

monday

Crazy busy day.

Lots of
phone calls,
e-mails,
places to go,
people to talk to,
&
running around with my head cut off.

But God is certainly good.
Most (if not all) things were taken care of,
people were contacted,
sister made me a sammie to chomp down on the way to work (yep- already not doing to good on my goal to be a better driver),
and I just kept receiving exciting and encouraging news right after each other!

Thank you Lord for an awesome sister who is intrigued by food enough
to find and make uh-mazing meals for us!
Seriously! Thank you Lord for good flavors, yummy food & for taste buds!

Thank you Lord for an encouraging day!
Please guide me in my decisions of what to spend my time on.
You know what that means (worry, hesitancy, & excitement),
what I can handle,
and what I should do.

Thank you for the blessings you have given me.
Reading over my last post, I realize just how many friendships I have made just in the last year and it is astounding! I have spoken with, joked with, and gotten to know some interesting and amazing people that I never thought I would have ever met!
Thank you Lord for those opportunities & lessons.
Please help my witness to still shine through & show me ways I can renew those seeds I hoped to have planted!




And please help me to have self control to actually go to bed earlier tomorrow(er-tonight)!

musica

Mikeschair:
Let the Waters Rise
Hallelujah

Brandon Heath:
Love Never Fails
Listen Up

Hillsong:
Glow
Yahweh

Tenth Avenue North:
Hallelujah