Things I've been learning lately....
.grace.
the meaning of the word grace
the meaning of the offering of grace
the meaning of my name grace
feeling worthy of my name grace
.forgiveness.
being given forgiveness
being reminded of the cost of my forgiveness
being convicted of my need to have forgiveness
being convicted of my need to give forgiveness, freely, when I don't want to, and repeatedly
.truth.
being honest
living for truth
expecting and showing truth
living in the present, in what is true and real
.hope.
learning what is healthy
learning what my dreams are
learning to have the right perspective for those dreams
learning to keep my goals and dreams in check. in the present. in this day.
.seasons.
all of these things are happening for a reason
I am learning what I am learning now because I have asked to, God has heard me, and is teaching!
I am living in this season of life right now. just this one. Not any other.
my goals and dreams are for the future, not right now, and I revel in that.
learning that I need to be content with only maybe having a someday soon
learning that my someday soon, is just that, someday.
Not necessarily now. tomorrow. or soon, but someday
thanking God for his sovereignty in my life.
thanking God for this ever-changing perspective, moving towards a healthy, right mindset
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Monday, March 29, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Week 1
Week 1: February 1-5
At the end of my first week of my internship, I find myself excited for the future but also frustrated with my present situation. To begin my internship in Child Life at Children’s Hospital Central California, I have to complete various steps so that I can even be at the site. After contacting my site supervisor, she was finally able to put me in touch with the correct person to complete my initial paperwork and qualifications to be interning. This woman schedules the clinical orientations for those interning at the hospital (for nursing and Child Life). After sending her proof of all of my immunizations and my TB test, I discovered that I needed to complete a few more things. Needless to say, after many trips to the health center at school, I will be cleared soon to attend an orientation.
However, after I found out last week that I cannot attend an orientation until the 19th (of February), I was quite upset. I feel frustrated as I wait to complete all of the necessary steps so that I can even be at my site. When I was at the hospital this week to turn in some papers, the woman in charge of orientation was quite firm and almost scolded me as she told me that until I had all of my immunizations completed and an updated TB test turned in, I was not even allowed to be talking to my site supervisor in any way or to be at the hospital. This was especially frustrating because she did not tell me I needed an updated TB test until after I had asked her. Therefore, after I had gone to the health center for the first time, I had to go back the very next day to get an updated test. Although I was taken aback by her harsh words, I quickly informed her that I have taken care of everything and I should be able to attend the soonest orientation.
In the end, although the initial stages of my internship have been frustrating, I am excited for what is to come. While at the hospital last week, my supervisor told me a little bit about the process of my internship and what areas of the hospital I will be involved in. I’m excited about eventually getting to work at my site and I’m eager to see what I have to share next week!
However, after I found out last week that I cannot attend an orientation until the 19th (of February), I was quite upset. I feel frustrated as I wait to complete all of the necessary steps so that I can even be at my site. When I was at the hospital this week to turn in some papers, the woman in charge of orientation was quite firm and almost scolded me as she told me that until I had all of my immunizations completed and an updated TB test turned in, I was not even allowed to be talking to my site supervisor in any way or to be at the hospital. This was especially frustrating because she did not tell me I needed an updated TB test until after I had asked her. Therefore, after I had gone to the health center for the first time, I had to go back the very next day to get an updated test. Although I was taken aback by her harsh words, I quickly informed her that I have taken care of everything and I should be able to attend the soonest orientation.
In the end, although the initial stages of my internship have been frustrating, I am excited for what is to come. While at the hospital last week, my supervisor told me a little bit about the process of my internship and what areas of the hospital I will be involved in. I’m excited about eventually getting to work at my site and I’m eager to see what I have to share next week!
Week 8: March 22-27
Once again, I experienced many new things at my site this week. On Wednesday I was in the oncology clinic again and was able to observe a few procedures with a Child Life Specialist (CLS). Every procedure is different, depending on the emotional state of the patient and their family. Some children are very quiet and calm, quiet and scared, or loudly scared, or loudly happy. One girl was very calm and excited to blow bubbles before she received her 'sleepy medicine'. Her dad held her while she became sedated, which seemed to make her and her parents more comfortable. The next patient was quiet and blew bubbles quickly as her mother talked for a long time with me. I think the mother may have needed someone to talk to calm herself down because she just kept talking without needing me to respond very often. Once again, the CLS I was observing told me that if we can calm patients (and their families) before a procedure, then they will wake up calmly and be more calm during procedures in the future. We talked again about a possible project and then I worked on some puzzles with some children. I also attended a long staff meeting on Wednesday. At this meeting, I simply observed and learned many new things. I learned some new things about how a Child Life program works together as a team, each fulfilling certain duties. I talked with my supervisor about my project and she gave me more direction for what I could work on. I hope to start working on my project soon both at my site and at home.
On Friday, I observed a different CLS in a unit I had only been in a few times before. She explained that she only works with patients who she receives referrals for. Apparently, getting referrals from nurses (& etc.) can be a big problem for specialists. Another thing she pointed out was a referral requesting toys to be brought for a patient. She explained that it is frustrating to receive that request because any professional in the hospital can take toys to a child. However, a CLS uses play and toys in various ways to address a range of problems or questions a patient may have and a more specific referral is more helpful.
I was also able to talk with this CLS about her background and education in CL. She explained that she attended a prestigious CL program for her master's degree and that she would be willing to talk more about further education goals with me. She encouraged me to become more educated in CL and to really start pursuing an internship position. Another exciting thing was when she offered to talk to the CL supervisor about possibly offering me a summer internship position. I wasn't even thinking I could do a CL internship without a degree (I'm graduating in the fall) so I found this news very exciting. I know at this point that I want to at least volunteer at the hospital once I complete my hours. Hours of volunteering are often required for internships but more than that, I really enjoy being with children at the hospital. And it wouldn't hurt to keep in contact with the CL program! In addition, I was very excited to hear that CL practicums are hard to find in California so my time at the hospital for my school internship will definitely help my resume! She also explained that I need to be more open to relocate for a position in CL because larger programs offer more training venues and larger cities typically employ more CLS at children's hospitals. I already knew some of the information she shared with me but I learned so much more. I'm excited to work with her again next week so I can continue learning about CL education, various CL programs, and becoming closer to completing some of my career objectives.
On Friday, I observed a different CLS in a unit I had only been in a few times before. She explained that she only works with patients who she receives referrals for. Apparently, getting referrals from nurses (& etc.) can be a big problem for specialists. Another thing she pointed out was a referral requesting toys to be brought for a patient. She explained that it is frustrating to receive that request because any professional in the hospital can take toys to a child. However, a CLS uses play and toys in various ways to address a range of problems or questions a patient may have and a more specific referral is more helpful.
I was also able to talk with this CLS about her background and education in CL. She explained that she attended a prestigious CL program for her master's degree and that she would be willing to talk more about further education goals with me. She encouraged me to become more educated in CL and to really start pursuing an internship position. Another exciting thing was when she offered to talk to the CL supervisor about possibly offering me a summer internship position. I wasn't even thinking I could do a CL internship without a degree (I'm graduating in the fall) so I found this news very exciting. I know at this point that I want to at least volunteer at the hospital once I complete my hours. Hours of volunteering are often required for internships but more than that, I really enjoy being with children at the hospital. And it wouldn't hurt to keep in contact with the CL program! In addition, I was very excited to hear that CL practicums are hard to find in California so my time at the hospital for my school internship will definitely help my resume! She also explained that I need to be more open to relocate for a position in CL because larger programs offer more training venues and larger cities typically employ more CLS at children's hospitals. I already knew some of the information she shared with me but I learned so much more. I'm excited to work with her again next week so I can continue learning about CL education, various CL programs, and becoming closer to completing some of my career objectives.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
He Alone is the one
A new song for a new day:
Hallelujah - Seven Stories Up
God of Heaven-
Glorious You reign on high
Great redeemer-
Lord we come to glorify
Here to sing of-
All the wonders You have done
Lift your voice
Sing this louder
Chorus:
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
To the king returning
God of Heaven-
Glorious You reign on high
Great redeemer-
The Lord we come to glorify
Here to sing of
All the wonders you have done
Lift your voice
Sing this louder
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
and in adoration sing
To the King returning
He's returning
(well) I know he's returning
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
To the king returning
Hallelujah - Seven Stories Up
God of Heaven-
Glorious You reign on high
Great redeemer-
Lord we come to glorify
Here to sing of-
All the wonders You have done
Lift your voice
Sing this louder
Chorus:
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
To the king returning
God of Heaven-
Glorious You reign on high
Great redeemer-
The Lord we come to glorify
Here to sing of
All the wonders you have done
Lift your voice
Sing this louder
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
and in adoration sing
To the King returning
He's returning
(well) I know he's returning
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
Hallelujah to the king
To the name above all names
He alone is the one who is worthy of all praise
Lift your voices, lift your hands
And in adoration sing
To the king returning
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
At the present moment
I want it so badly
I want to want it for all the right reasons
I'm learning to recognize them
Learning to change my desires to God's
Learning that dying to self is a natural and necessary thing to do
I'm learning to shift my gaze to heaven
Learning to shift my goal on the right prize
I know my desires at the present moment are right, but still need more refining
I want to want the right things
I'm changing my standards, my goals
I'm taking the pride out of my heart
Replacing it with grace and mercy that covers all
Every imperfection, every imposing 'deal breaker'
A girl that is learning to love
Learning to love in a different way
Love is to offer grace willingly, not expecting anything in return- ever
To sacrifice who's 'right', letting arguments slip away
Living a life of love is hard though
Not easy like singing a song
Both make melodies and go out of tune
But that doesn't mean that it is wrong
Wanting something in this moment I don't know if I'll ever have
I'm hoping, believing, and asking
And trying to live life a different way
God help me with this process! Thank you for this song you gave to me :)
I want to want it for all the right reasons
I'm learning to recognize them
Learning to change my desires to God's
Learning that dying to self is a natural and necessary thing to do
I'm learning to shift my gaze to heaven
Learning to shift my goal on the right prize
I know my desires at the present moment are right, but still need more refining
I want to want the right things
I'm changing my standards, my goals
I'm taking the pride out of my heart
Replacing it with grace and mercy that covers all
Every imperfection, every imposing 'deal breaker'
A girl that is learning to love
Learning to love in a different way
Love is to offer grace willingly, not expecting anything in return- ever
To sacrifice who's 'right', letting arguments slip away
Living a life of love is hard though
Not easy like singing a song
Both make melodies and go out of tune
But that doesn't mean that it is wrong
Wanting something in this moment I don't know if I'll ever have
I'm hoping, believing, and asking
And trying to live life a different way
God help me with this process! Thank you for this song you gave to me :)
My heart, at the moment
I wanna be the one who knows everything about you
I wanna be the one who’s always on your mind
I wanna be the one to get all of your affection and attention
You’re the one that I’ve been waiting for, for all this time
And I can’t imagine anything, anything better than
(Chorus)
Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon
I wanna be the one who does everything with you
Watching stars, washing cars, taking walks, going to the store
I wanna be the one who gets to change her last name someday
To something that sounds something more like yours
(Chorus)
Yeah I’ll be telling you I love you
On a picture perfect day
And those words inside my head
They sound like angels singing praise
It’s what I was made to say
(Chorus)
I wanna be the one who’s always on your mind
I wanna be the one to get all of your affection and attention
You’re the one that I’ve been waiting for, for all this time
And I can’t imagine anything, anything better than
(Chorus)
Someday falling in love with you
Holding your hand
Making our plans all come true
Someday under a sky so blue
I’ll give you my heart
Our story will start
Someday soon
I wanna be the one who does everything with you
Watching stars, washing cars, taking walks, going to the store
I wanna be the one who gets to change her last name someday
To something that sounds something more like yours
(Chorus)
Yeah I’ll be telling you I love you
On a picture perfect day
And those words inside my head
They sound like angels singing praise
It’s what I was made to say
(Chorus)
Forever Love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
Nothing in this world could ever separate us
I will love You more than anyone on earth
Nothing I desire could ever satisfy me the way that You do
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
Nothing in this world could ever separate us
I will love You more than anyone on earth
Nothing I desire could ever satisfy me the way that You do
From the bottom of my heart I'll sing to You
From the depths of who I am I love You
With everything inside I'll run to You
Cause all that I've become I owe to You
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
You are my forever love
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