So what

Yes.
So I listen to a random bunch of music.


Yesterday I came home from the library with:
-the soundtrack from the movie Valentine's Day
-Jack Johnson's newest cd: To The Sea   &
-Peter Pan

A good mix if you ask me!

Beautiful

Beautiful. Beautiful.
I am lost for more to say.

Self doubt. Not measuring up.
Making judgments, assumptions.
Spitting out words that 'sound right.'
This is not of you.

I just want to worship you my Lord.
I just want to dwell in who you are.
May this be my prayer. My cry. My thought. My breath.
Beautiful. Beautiful.

You are so much bigger than my thoughts.
Than hers. Than the fact that I don't feel like I fit in. Belong. Matter.

You are so much bigger. & Beautiful.

Beautiful. Beautiful.

Help me to get out of myself. To turn to you.
To see the bigness of You. & to forget me. What I want. What I feel. What I think. Everything that replaces You with me, self-doubt, lies, & Satan.

Beautiful. B e a u t i f u l! I am lost for more to say!

the lastest

Here is what my life has looked like the past few days:

Headed to Bako w/the sis on Friday (Milo greeted us @ the door :)
-Went to Baja Fresh with parents & watched Jensen Project w/the fam.

Did few little errands Saturday.
-Hung out @ sisters' house: watched tv & made super good summer food (grilled homegrown zuchinni, homegrown tomato salad, homemade basil lemonade, turkey burgers, & berry grunt dessert).

Went to 1st service w/parents Sunday morn.
-Leftover lunch, read book, headed out for the Hollywood Bowl! to see The Bird & the Bee, She & Him, & The Swell Sound. So great! got home super late, tired, & sweaty.

Slept in late Monday morn.
-Put on painting clothes & went to paint stuff for VBS @ sisters' church. Dinner w/whole fam.

Woke up Tuesday & repeated painting from Monday.
-Packed up car, & raced to Fresno. Made it in time for helping out w/WSM (Well Student Ministries -highschool) where we saw How To Train Your Dragon (my 3rd time!) @ our $3 theater! So fun- met tons of highschoolers- but forgot to get my sunglasses from Stacey :(

Got ready, made lists, & headed out to 3 grocery stores on Wednesday.
-After Winco, Grocery Outlet, and Fresh & Easy- definitely had a full fridge & freezer.
Had good friend Alexandra over & made couscous summery salad and zuchinni. Then had completely homemade strawberry shortcake w/whipped cream. (Alex literally licked her plate it was so good :) Then played Dutch Blitz & learned Durach. Watched JAG.

Got up late, cleaned, chores & caught up on blogs on Thursday.
-Parents arrived in town, finally signed lease papers to renew lease for 6 months!, ate awesome dinner, w/awesome rolls (from F&E), & more strawberry shortcake, Woodward Park library, target, & in bed by 10 o'clock!!

Woke up to parents packing & etc. Friday.
-Found out neighbors are moving out (loudly), finished up random tasks w/Dad (& his helpful drill:), read blogs, lunch, shower, errands, & hangout w/Rach's summer lifegroup tonight!

This week was filled with: Lots of boring, lots of fun, lots of laughter (w/Alex & parents), & lots of random times of waking up :)

New Song: Lead Me

Such an inspired, relevant, and convicting song!

I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're in independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

NEW SONG!!!

We have been singing this song at church for a month or two now.
It is truly awesome.
For a long time now, I have admired the songwriter (Tim Neufeld) and I am, of course, !jazzed! that they released a new cd!

So here it is:
The Saving One by Starfield

What mercy was revealed
What selflessness and peace
My fate was surely sealed
Until He rescued me
His pardon for my sin
His bounty for my need
From slavery and shame
I am redeemed

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One

No fear can hold me down
Nor darkness steal my joy
For blood has been poured out
The enemy destroyed
Death could not hold Him down
The cross was not enough
To steal away His throne
For He is God

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One

Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved
Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved

And Heaven can't contain
The glory of the Son
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One
His love has made a way
The grave is overcome
Jesus is the Christ, the saving One (x2)

Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved
Anyone who calls upon His name
They will be saved
They will be saved

Yummy Meals

I have been trying to make my lunches (& dinners) more interesting-
especially because I have been eating by myself a lot lately-which isn't quite as fun.

For lunch on Wednesday I had:
-cucumbers, carrots, & ranch
-leftover fruit & chicken salad from Panera (a la Kelly)
-Zataran's rice pilaf
 I haven't ever had Zataran's and I found it quite delicious!
Pilaf is usually a mild dish with neutral flavoring but theirs had peppers which added a bit of spice & sweetness all at the same time- a lovely compliment to the buttery base.


Tonight for dinner I had:
-broiled chicken (cutlets- which is why they're so tiny in the pictures)
-leftover broccoli from last night
-leftover rice pilaf from Wednesday
-leftover cucumber from Taco Salad on Friday with lime juice & Mrs. Dash Caribbean spice (yum! pop! zing!)
It was uh-may-zing!!!
And it didn't take too long :) More microwaving than anything else :)
-can't forget the Dryer's Heath bar ice cream!

Nothing and Everything

This weekend was when I did nothing and everything.
Friday was a Furlough day at school and then Monday was Memorial Day, so.....
I had a four day weekend!!

Woohoo!
And in that time, I did quite a lot of nothing and quite a lot of everything!
Friday: nothingness, odds-n-ends, drove to Hanford to meet up with the seesters, where we.......
ate a humongous dinner at Superior (deviled egg sand which, potato chips, large chocolate shake!)
Saturday: yummy bfast made a la seesters and got ready for.......
ur grandparents came into town! which was a real treat!
(they never come up north and they never spend time with just us granddaughters!) We talked for a bit, played with Milo (who came along with his Mom: Kelly), and then went to.....
Ihop! Where we had a yummy and entertaining lunch paid for by Grandpa :)
Then we went outside, took some pictures, and got into the car, drove for a loong time to find ice cream at......
RiteAid! Quickly licked up the melting treat and went a few streets over to.....
the library! Quick but fun stop at the Woodward Park Library where there are always great movies, magazines, and books! Then we got in the car and took a short ride over to......
Woodward Park! Took Milo to the dog park, laid in the shade for a bit, and then